I hurried to the bathroom, took a bath, brushed my teeth, and finally wore my suit. It was easy and then I thought, what am I really going to do? I reached for my phone beneath the mountain of pillows and blankets I had on my bed. I took my keys and locked the door, I was ready to leave.
I went to a nearby Italian restaurant, ordered my pizza and some pasta. I sat and ate my dinner quietly. I did not think as much as I felt for I felt empty.
I do not know the answer to her question, I did not know what to do. I panicked, sub-consciously that is. It was frustrating, my mind was sailing in a vast space. I felt for once, the abyss that I have created. Today, I live with questions that I dare not answer. I keep on thinking how she was the minute that it occurred to us. I keep on thinking how she will be at each second that passes. I keep on thinking, never doing anything that can be done.
I do not know myself. The mental torment that I cause to myself is beyond comprehension. I keep on rejecting reasons. I cannot feel a thing for what has happened. It was unexpected, but I did expect for it. I am not sure if I wanted our decision. The case is pending, it floats within the still air and blocked by the walls I have created for myself.
When can I face it? When can I finally decide for the answer? I do not know for I am shocked. I cry. I reminisce. I laugh. I become speechless. I get angry. I forget.
Still, I do not have the answer. I am disappointed.
Everybody knows
Everybody knows
That you cradle the sun, sun
Living in remorse
Sky is over
Don't you want to hold me baby?
Disappointed, going crazy
Even though we can't afford
The sky is over
Even though we can't afford
The sky is over
I don't want to see you go
The sky is over
Even though we can't afford
The sky is over
- Sky is Over, Serj Tankian
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